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Mrs. Hopeful - Chapter 4

Journal Entry: Thu May 8, 2008, 4:13 AM
I doubt that he could look at me the way he looks at her
And I fall apart from every word that's leaving me unsure

She's got him by the chest
And if she wants, his feet will never touch the ground

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do...

He whispers in the sweetest way I wish I didn't hear
And smiles when she kisses deep and never stops for air

She's got him by the chest
And if she wants, he'll fall the lovers fall

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do...


I thought this would be easy...silly girl. I break trust for a living, not hearts. If someones going to cry, it's going to be over me, not some other thing, not some other woman. Although it is amusing to watch how stupid that man is around her.

And am I to wreck that?

It's surprising I even struggle with whether to care or not, and wish this could be easier because my eyes miss being dry. I'm sure I'll look back on this occasion with risibility, and a sense of humor at how absurd I was to set aside my intent for any amount of time at all. I suppose love can make even outsides and innocent bystanders guilty of wanting it to last. It tricks us into believing maybe this time it's for real, maybe this time it will last forever, and humanity will not be complete shit after all.

I'm not so easy to convince or be mislead anymore...and yet I see it in his eyes, and how he acts when she laughs or pouts her lips.

And am I to break that?

Am I to be the one Sir Tanly Safe hates for tomorrow and a day?

Furthermore, how would I tell Mr. Sick I was unable to complete my work?

Be it as it may, she will be the end of me.

Should I let him keep his lovely girl forever in romance
Or let my little lies come out and ruin his only chance

I've got him by the chest
And If I want, his feet will never leave the ground

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do...

Be it as it may, Ms. Conception will be the end of me.


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So it took me awhile to figure out how I could make a story long enough to make an actual book. When I started I had no story at all, just characters that needed one. I know where it's all going now though, and I wish I could tell you all because it would leave some of you with smiles and some with frowns and some with mouths that didn't know what to do.

But you'll just have to keep reading to figure out why.

My names Mckay

I like to be a tricky bitch, kinda like love.

That's not why they call me Mckay though.

Stick around for another week and I might tell you why, be careful though as I might break your heart once or twice as well!

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  • Listening to: Myself talk about myself
  • Reading: and writing.
  • Watching: 24
  • Playing: the bad guy
  • Eating: Chipotle
  • Drinking: beer

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 22
  • Current Residence: Phoenix
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: Comfy
  • Print preference: LAserjet???!
  • Interests: I'd love for a girl to come around anytime soon.
  • Favourite movie: Quills, The Dead Poets Society, Contact, Snatch
  • Favourite band or musician: Thrice/Treos
  • Favourite genre of music: Loud and in my car at 4am.
  • Favourite poet or writer: I'm to sexy for my lord.
  • Operating System: Brain?
  • Shell of choice: the closest one when my gas tank is low.
  • Wallpaper of choice: Snozberry
  • Skin of choice: uhhhhh smooth?
  • Favourite game: Counter-Strike Source
  • Favourite gaming platform: Computer nerd FTW.
  • Personal Quote: It's personal
  • Tools of the Trade: (New) Canon 30D, (Old) Sony A100. Picasa, CS2, Being uber clever.

Devious Comments

~FadeStrikemind:iconFadeStrikemind: 3 days 12 hours ago
You is welcome. :glomp:

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"What is the meaning of life? Much simpler than we think.
It's a combination of two things: the consistant asking of the question...
...and a persistant search for the answer." --F.S. :rose:

:heart:[link]:heart:
~FadeStrikemind:iconFadeStrikemind: 4 days 4 hours ago
...I felt you needed it for some reason.
I'm not sure why:
just a nagging feeling that
someone needed to wish you
an awesome day. :shrug:

I hope you have another awesome day anyway. :heart:

--
"What is the meaning of life? Much simpler than we think.
It's a combination of two things: the consistant asking of the question...
...and a persistant search for the answer." --F.S. :rose:

:heart:[link]:heart:
~sidferry:iconsidferry: 4 days 9 hours ago
Great Gallery Man,,,,, :clap:

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LiFe's Too sHoRT,,,,, Use iT,,,,,,,,,,
~FadeStrikemind:iconFadeStrikemind: 4 days 16 hours ago
I hope you have an awesome day! :heart:

That's all. :nod:

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"What is the meaning of life? Much simpler than we think.
It's a combination of two things: the consistant asking of the question...
...and a persistant search for the answer." --F.S. :rose:

:heart:[link]:heart:
~oddbydefault:iconoddbydefault: May 5, 2008, 7:32:46 AM
I should hope not!
well, its just stupidly annoying and way too coincidental...
I was rather shocked when he mentioned it.

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:invisible:
The reports of my demise have been greatly exaggerated
*IMustBeDead:iconIMustBeDead: May 4, 2008, 9:42:03 PM
Lol well I'm not interested in having sexual relations with your father!

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I can change your view on shit, just click me.
*IMustBeDead:iconIMustBeDead: May 4, 2008, 9:39:06 PM
It's no problem man, I figured you didn't see my rant haha.

But I don't mind when you ask me, so whenever you want to talk about it or have questions shoot away.

It was mostly to people that I don't talk to or don't know or anything asking me to help them.

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I can change your view on shit, just click me.
~oddbydefault:iconoddbydefault: May 4, 2008, 4:28:38 PM
oddly enough...

my father is actually randomly going to Phoenix next week for 3 days.

I am not allowed to go because i am at school.

I mean, come on...out of everywhere, it had to be Phoenix.

I am not happy.

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:invisible:
The reports of my demise have been greatly exaggerated
~mckenziebobby:iconmckenziebobby: May 4, 2008, 3:47:53 PM
Yeah, just read the entry. Sorry about that. Just to get it out there, I wasn't exactly asking how to improve as much as I was wondering what you thought....I only care what you think because I like your work. Don't worry (not that you'd worry about someone you don't know), not much of anything anyone says will change the way I do things. Sure, my work can improve, and I want it to, but when it comes to the what I put out for the world to see (or like, 10 watchers on dA, lol) I post what I like, not what people want to see. I take pictures to express the way I see things, not the way I think other people want to see them. 98.5% of other people are boring. :)
~justanormalgirl:iconjustanormalgirl: May 2, 2008, 11:35:43 AM
yeah!! a bit diffucult u know...with school and work but i'm always carygmycmera with me...

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here's the plan....you, me , whipped cream and hancuffs, any questions??
*IMustBeDead:iconIMustBeDead: May 1, 2008, 9:38:10 PM
lol I'm not sure if you read my latest journal entry.....


But since it is you I'll give it a whirl.

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I can change your view on shit, just click me.
~justanormalgirl:iconjustanormalgirl: May 1, 2008, 8:55:35 PM
hi there!! i love ur art...ur a master!!!...you inspire a lot...acctually i want to be a photographer but i need a lot of practice to be as good as you!

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here's the plan....you, me , whipped cream and hancuffs, any questions??
~mckenziebobby:iconmckenziebobby: May 1, 2008, 7:34:12 PM
You know what would make me unbelievably happy? If you were to critique the newest 5 photos in my gallery. I'd like to know what you think. I need guidance and direction....because I don't know if my stuff's likable or not.
~pyrosdoor:iconpyrosdoor: May 1, 2008, 3:27:40 PM
amazing gallery you've got there!
~herestothemasses:iconherestothemasses: Apr 29, 2008, 6:33:57 PM
hm. this seems like something you would enjoy.

[link]

:)

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heres to the masses:
the broken hearts,
the endless nights,
and all the ink.
~InfernoVahn:iconInfernoVahn: Apr 29, 2008, 9:10:38 AM
You have some amazing talent, both as a writer and a photographer. Very deserving of a watch!

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:bulletred:Currently Listening: "Retarded In Love" by Say Anything
:bulletblue:Current Project: Quick Writes
~NiwatoriYoYo:iconNiwatoriYoYo: Apr 28, 2008, 1:47:02 AM
No probs ^-^

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If you be my star, I'll be your sky ♥